I love Sunday mornings. They have always been a time of reflection and solitude for me. Usually, I’m alone with God and my thoughts, and that is the case this morning. I write this post because I feel inspired to due to some soon-coming life changes.
God has been extremely good to me in this season. A little less than a year ago, I moved to Pennsylvania with one suitcase, my younger sister and a prayer that things would work out as I moved in with my older sister. At that time, we didn’t have a good relationship, but she was willing to host us and even helped us to find employment working with her. I never realized how much our relationship would change over the course of a year. In that time, we’ve become friends, we’ve shared difficult moments as well as joyous ones and God has made an ugly relationship beautiful. My relationship with my younger sister has flourished to another level. We’ve always been close, but after sharing an apartment, working and attending church together, we couldn’t be any closer.
I say these things because my season in Pennsylvania is ending very soon. I have been hired as a 6th grade social studies teacher near Atlanta. I applied to this school system last year and never received any feedback, but this year received a call back not even a week after applying. God can be found all in the details of this process, and I know that this is where God wants me. Next month, I’ll be moving back to that familiar place. And although I am a bit sad about leaving so many fruitful relationships in my family, jobs, church, etc, I know that God has a purpose for my next season. I told one of my sisters in Christ several months ago that I believe that this season was about relationships. God wanted to restore my confidence in the concept of family, because through various painful situations, it had been destroyed. However, God has shown me that no relationship is beyond repair with Him. Family was His idea and although satan has done all that he can to destroy it, God is truly greater than any power of hell. Recently, I concluded that the other theme of this season was resilience. God has taught me through a job that I didn’t love as well as a very difficult job that I prayed for that resilience is a virtue as well. It is so easy to quit anything that doesn’t make us happy or please us in the way that we think it should, but sticking things out builds character that can’t be build otherwise.
In the time that I have been here, I have made great friends, had incredible co-workers, started a relationship with an incredible man, joined a loving, growing church, become close to my family and experienced exponential personal growth. How does one walk away from that and not feel slighted? How do you leave a season like this without feeling fearful and afraid? How do you go back to the place that you asked God to take you away from?
You remember Deuteronomy 31:8:
…It is the Lord who goes before you. He will be with you; he will not leave you or forsake you. Do not fear or be dismayed.
I have asked God to replace my fears for this new season with faith. I’ve asked him to give me a faith that endures and to lead me where my trust is without borders. God has shown me that He leads every season, so I have nothing to fear. I ask for your prayers as I make a major move and start my first full year of teaching very soon. I don’t know how this will all come together, but I know that my God goes before me.